SWERVE.....

She kept on crying and held on to me like she was never going to let me go. I cried with her too. Her life was a total wreck. She had made a lot of mistakes. She did not want to leave. She kept saying amidst her wailing, "I want to die". 30 minutes prior to this time, she narrated what was to me a non- fairy tale. She had done everything that was wrong you could think of.
        At the age of 9, Jemima was raped by her 21 year old uncle. She grew exposed to things she shouldn't be. she became pornography addictive and from then on, she couldn't do any thing right. 
        Everything in her life was falling apart. Her self esteem, her relationships, everything. Her mom looked for help wherever she thought possible until she met me. She told me everything and I wanted so much to meet Jemima but I was also anxious. What could I possibly tell her? What? But I met her anyway. She was tired, she had had enough so she let it out. Jemima is better today, she's healing, most of all, she's thanking God she met me.

 It's possible to blame everyone and everything around her right? In fact, that's exactly what you're doing right now. Her uncle, her mother, technology, everything but Jemima didn't. Everyday that she woke up, there was a better life. There was something better. She just needed someone to tell her this is not you, there's a better you. But no one did, it was judgement and condemnation she got everytime.
        I tell you, someone around you needs your help. The person is right by you. all you need to do is SWERVE!

Let go and let God!

"You have held on to that pain for way too long. Yes they all hurt you bur darling, it's time to let go". These were my words to this girl that had decided to ruin her life because of her so many hurts. She had cried and now sobbed amidst her short but touching words, "they hurt me, they kept hurting me....my mom did nothing, she never believed me. I tried telling her, my pain tried telling everybody but all they did was judge me".
       Can we then ask God why he made Keren so pretty? Can we ask her why she did not hide from them? Can we ask her mother why she did not buy Keren big clothes that covered her body and showed just her face? i ask you today who can we blame for Keren's hurt? NOBODY. Nobody could see it coming. How is she meant to prepare for five different rapes by different people at different times?
       "But baby, you survived it. You're here now. I want you to cry. Yes, cry. Cry it all out, the pain, the hurt, the unforgiveness, the betrayal, cry it all out sweetheart. You have to be somebody in life, a great person. They won't determine that, you will. Keren let go, and let God"
       "I led Keren to Christ that day and since she has been healing. Everyday she is a brand new person. you can call it therapy yeah? lol.
      
No one is ever responsible for what you make out of your life. Not even your past. All you need to do is simply let go. No one will do it for you, you do it for yourself. Just let go!