Am not ready!!!

I wrote this on behalf of me and a friend of mine. I just remembered how much we both turned God down individually several times and we hope that it will help you to make that very hard but rewarding decision to follow God today.

Am not ready... am not ready
That has always been my attitude
Towards God and everything that comes with him
Time after time, day after day,
I longed for sin, and made them best friends
I played with them, danced with them
But each time, when I turned around,
Jesus was always there, waiting. Patiently.
My friend's mother- in- law's mama warned me
But all I did was turn away again
One day, as usual, by one a.m, I was staggering back
My belly filled with liquor and breaths from the lips of guys
A lot of them went into me and out, into me and out
And now am incomplete!
At first I thought, "what kind of God will want me"
I clean up everyday cos it covers my filthiness, my dirt, my mess
What kind of God will want someone like me?
To me, God was like Josh
That always waited to give me ice cream
Every time,and gosh! I didn't like him
But he did! He did!
I became convinced that God was still there when mama dint die
Cos I ran to God
I had heard that miracles fall from heaven
Though I could not understand cos the skies seemed closed to me and selfish too
Like everyone I had known in my life
When I let Josh in finally and he failed me
When everyone judged me and all God did was love me
All he did was wash me and save me and hold me
And then I realized!
God was like a man marrying a woman he knows will constantly cheat
Ever since I let him in, I think ive left him a hundred times
But my hero! He's always waiting for me
I don't want to leave him waiting no more
Cos I love him too much now
He never gave up on me and he never will!. 
Whenever you think you are ready to let God in, Fine! Take all the time you want. But think, how long do you want him to wait for you? He's always going to be there anyways. He's always going to be the best for you. In him, you have all the answers you want. He's your peace. I think you should let him in.